its 0:00,im sitting in the living room on this old caugh listening to the tic of my gfs grannies clock

one of the cheap practical things that every good granny buys for they grandkids... weird how it never stops,never gets tired just keeps ticing.

shes now trying to fall asleep,asking for me to come and spoon her.

how do i deserve her?

shes everything i have ever wanted and ever dreamed of ... and now i slowly start wasting it.

its as stupid as it sounds, i just cant keep up with things going on the same way.

like a good routine that at these certain moments pushes you to bad side of yourself .

you are rude and nasty,and right after you start apologizing and begging for forgiveness.

you just want your beautiful simple routine.

but how many times its going to be like this, you ask yourself,ptomising at the same time that it was the last one.